Just Around the Corner

So Thanksgiving was yesterday. Unfortunately I forgot to take pictures of the day... I had my camera out, I just never took any pics... sad, I know. However, I have to say that the turkey was possibly the absolute turkey I have ever tasted... even the white meat was juicy and delicious even without gravy! Well done Dad, I was very proud of the accomplishment.

I love the holidays. Truly I do. The food, the music, the lights, the atmosphere. What's really nice is that it's cool enough here on the Central Coast to be justified in wearing sweaters and scarves now. Nothing is worse than feeling the need to wear a tank top and flip flops three days before Christmas because of the weather... I've done it.
There really is only one thing that I'm not really a fan of about the holidays, the stress. Some people are not fans of the holidays, and being around people with that attitude can make it very difficult to enjoy the time, which can be depressing. I am going to do my best to really enjoy the Christmas season this year. Perhaps a huge part of keeping the joy alive will be trying to never forget the true reason for the season: the birth of Christ... even if he wasn't really born on December 25th . Remember that we are celebrating the fact that the Creator of the Universe came and was born as a child, who would grow up to die on a cross in order to save a world that is lost in darkness. If that isn't a reason to be grateful and joyful I don't know what is!

It is now less than a month until Christmas and I am excited. Even though I am personally of the opinion that the day after Halloween is fair game for Christmas music... (I know that many people don't agree with me on that one... but I don't really care.) I haven't really listened to much Christmas music yet this season. I will work on changing that.

There's only one other thing that is kind of sad about the holidays this year. My sister is overseas for the second year in a row, and that means that She will once again not be here for Christmas (she wasn't here for Thanksgiving either). Not having my sister here for the holidays is the hardest part of having her overseas right now... sad.

There wasn't really much of a reason for this post. Sorry if you feel deceived, that was not my intention.

Thought Processor

I know it has been a really long time since I have written anything on this thing. However, it has not been because I didn't want to write anything... nor was it the result of having nothing to say. Rather, that I feel like I never know how to put my thoughts into words... or if I do manage to somehow put words to my thoughts... I never know if any of it makes sense to those who live outside of my head.

Like now. There are thoughts about the future... family... friendships... all scary thoughts... none of which have been processed enough to be able to put them into words.

It would seem that I am not very organic. Unprocessed thoughts are intimidating. I enjoy when others write in a very free and spontaneous voice... however the idea of putting the raw contents of my head onto the table in front of other people is horrifying.

There are a select few people who I am close enough with to be comfortable sharing the less processed and closer to raw versions of what goes on in my head, the rest of the world gets the planned, prepped and 'perfected' version... to put it another way, the filtered version.

Here is my question: Does the fact that I am not absolutely and completely candid with everyone in my life mean that I am not being real with everyone? Is it okay to let different people see different sides of me... or do I in fact need to be the same with everyone in order to be consistent?

I personally don't think that it is a problem to have certain close friends and family that get to see the more relaxed, playful, free, version of myself, whereas the rest of the world sees a slightly more refined version. I am almost positive that everyone does it on some level. So is it okay?